words emptied

i just got off the phone with a friend who is experiencing such heartache. she has been told, and promised things for months, only to be told now that none of what was promised will happen. she is devestated. she put her trust in others, not only to do what was right, but what was Biblical. she has invested her time and money into the future she thought she was stepping into. she is now in so much pain. she feels lied to. mistreated. neglected. betrayed. abandonned. she doesn't understand how they could do this to her as well as her child. after everything they said. after everything they have told her for months. everything in her life had been orchestrated toward what she thought would be a certain outcome. she never imagined they would let her down. she never thought she would be tossed aside so easily.

i can relate.

it's hard when we think we can trust others completely. even with our weaknesses. we believe in others, and their words to us so much that we alter our lives with that promised dream as the destination. when promises are broken, and words spoken turn out to be just moments emptied in time, our hearts ache. not only for what was promised, but for the trust extended. life then seems like a fish trying to breathe out of water, gasping but oxygen and energy are nowhere to be found.

my friend's timing could not have been more perfect. or could i say that it was the Lord's timing. He brought this situation to me, within minutes of discovering that words promised to me...were emptied. i was so livid, and hurt at the same time. "how could i have been so wrong?" keeps running thru my head. to have something so specific promised to you, that it would never happen...or even something that would happen...turn out to be untrue. the let down is so much greater than what might appear miniscule in fact of happening. when someone tells u that they will do something, as in the case of my friend, and she based her whole life around this promised outcome, job, living situation, child care arrangements, Church and school, only to have it ripped away two weeks prior seems horrible. as for my situation, when someone tells u something that they won't do, and then does it, how can u trust anything else that is said. anything else that was promised. why would someone do something so intentional to make someone they care about hurt?

i do know that the Lord is Soverign and will use situations like these to show us the way. to show us what His plan and provision for us will be. it may not always be in the fashion that we would like, or timing we would like, but it will always be what is best for us. for now, i am gasping for oxygen and for understanding.