another bull's-eye
so there i was, at another stop light...a sitting target!
down goes the window of the pimped out cadillac next to me.
"what's your name pretty girl?"
reply: "I'm taken."
"you married?"
reply: "no, I belong to God."
after a quizzical look, the light turned green and i left the situation behind. i am convinced that due to recent events in my life, i am a little more sensitive to this issue than normal. and any of u who know me, know i am usually already sensitive to this issue. while most men mean this to be a compliment, to a Christian woman who wants to be wanted and seen for more than her body...it can be more negative than positive. it can be confusing for some women when they want to be what God wants them to be and still try to be what they think others and society want them to be as well. although i am convinced that the two of those should be one and the same. others, especially Christians should see us the way God sees us first and foremost. they should protect that creation made in God's image. even from ourselves if need be or our warped version of what we should be like. the problem lies in that our culture, our society does not lean us in the right direction. it encourages instant gratification, it's all about how someone or something looks, easy come easy go, 24 hour entertainment at your fingertips, replacement of people when they are of no longer the make and model u want, and a complete disregard for consequences for our actions. our kids are being raised in the here and now, with no thought of future consequences or benefits. they are taught that if u see something u like, go get it. with no forethought of what the outcome may or may not be. men and women chase after whatever is right in front of them. thinking that each one that comes along might be "the one." they don't seem to take the time to even really find out what it is that they should or shouldn't be looking for. as for me...i will be the first to say i am not an easy one to get. i will find the toughest situation to be in, and watch the person's integrity in that situation. some would say that is setting myself up for failure. some may say it is the shoot yourself in the foot syndrome, because no one can pass every test. i don't expect perfection but, i believe a person's integrity can be seen in any given situation where there might be concern. and if their integrity isn't what it should be, than there is an area that the Lord wants to work in. i believe that if we know the area we need the most in, the one that we have been hurt the most in, the area that has caused us so much pain, the area that we have had to go through the most healing with the Lord in, and we take that situation and expose ourselves to others...that their actions in those moments can show us so much. for me it takes an enormous amount of trust or desire to trust just to place myself in that situation though, to even see what the end result would be. please don't misunderstand me. i am flawed. i will fail many tests myself i am sure. i am forgiving of so much. almost to a fault at times. in some areas though, i can forgive...but i can accept the revelation that comes from the situation revealing whether there is a future or not that is safe for me in that friendship. whether the one area that has hurt me the most, will be protected and treated in a godly manner.
in the past i have questioned whether i had suffered from the shoot yourself in the foot syndrome or not...but then i realized, all i was at those times, was the target. the target leaving herself open to see what would happen.
i'm tired of being a shot.
down goes the window of the pimped out cadillac next to me.
"what's your name pretty girl?"
reply: "I'm taken."
"you married?"
reply: "no, I belong to God."
after a quizzical look, the light turned green and i left the situation behind. i am convinced that due to recent events in my life, i am a little more sensitive to this issue than normal. and any of u who know me, know i am usually already sensitive to this issue. while most men mean this to be a compliment, to a Christian woman who wants to be wanted and seen for more than her body...it can be more negative than positive. it can be confusing for some women when they want to be what God wants them to be and still try to be what they think others and society want them to be as well. although i am convinced that the two of those should be one and the same. others, especially Christians should see us the way God sees us first and foremost. they should protect that creation made in God's image. even from ourselves if need be or our warped version of what we should be like. the problem lies in that our culture, our society does not lean us in the right direction. it encourages instant gratification, it's all about how someone or something looks, easy come easy go, 24 hour entertainment at your fingertips, replacement of people when they are of no longer the make and model u want, and a complete disregard for consequences for our actions. our kids are being raised in the here and now, with no thought of future consequences or benefits. they are taught that if u see something u like, go get it. with no forethought of what the outcome may or may not be. men and women chase after whatever is right in front of them. thinking that each one that comes along might be "the one." they don't seem to take the time to even really find out what it is that they should or shouldn't be looking for. as for me...i will be the first to say i am not an easy one to get. i will find the toughest situation to be in, and watch the person's integrity in that situation. some would say that is setting myself up for failure. some may say it is the shoot yourself in the foot syndrome, because no one can pass every test. i don't expect perfection but, i believe a person's integrity can be seen in any given situation where there might be concern. and if their integrity isn't what it should be, than there is an area that the Lord wants to work in. i believe that if we know the area we need the most in, the one that we have been hurt the most in, the area that has caused us so much pain, the area that we have had to go through the most healing with the Lord in, and we take that situation and expose ourselves to others...that their actions in those moments can show us so much. for me it takes an enormous amount of trust or desire to trust just to place myself in that situation though, to even see what the end result would be. please don't misunderstand me. i am flawed. i will fail many tests myself i am sure. i am forgiving of so much. almost to a fault at times. in some areas though, i can forgive...but i can accept the revelation that comes from the situation revealing whether there is a future or not that is safe for me in that friendship. whether the one area that has hurt me the most, will be protected and treated in a godly manner.
in the past i have questioned whether i had suffered from the shoot yourself in the foot syndrome or not...but then i realized, all i was at those times, was the target. the target leaving herself open to see what would happen.
i'm tired of being a shot.
posted by Jackson at 6:25 PM
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